Lady in the Mirror

I am her and she is me and we will fly...

She sees me...all of me. I look into the mirror.

I stare... I ponder...

Lady in the mirror... you remind me of me.

You make me feel complete.

I know I am alive as long as I see you breathing...

fogging up my mirror.

The heat from you warms my blood...

our hearts beat as one.

I tell you I love you over and over... I love you.

You are the epitome of perfection in my eyes as I gaze into the mirror...

our eyes meet... I blink... you blink...

are you thinking what I'm thinking?

One Mind.

One Soul.

One Life.

One Goal.

Lady in the mirror... can you see me now?
At the top of the ladder... now I'm tumbling down...

I know you're looking at me.

Saying "get back up!"

Life is a rollercoaster... twists and turns... highs and lows...

but at the end of the day I go home...

close the door...

and meet my lady in the mirror.

She resides in me.

She defines me.

She makes me feel sublime.

You are mine forever!

We intertwine forever!

Lay with me

Dine with me

Play with me

Die with me...

Lady in the Mirror...

Reminisce

Good Morning~

I reminisce... open my eyes... caught in a dreary bliss... as I awake I hear the sound of fate.

Another day awaits...

I recall a time when I waited in the womb... not knowing what lied ahead... birth came to soon.

Tomorrow is never promised...

I remember when I didn't think of yesterday... I'm only 23... going forward is the only way.

Yesterday is gone...

But I miss it... I don't wish for it back... I just want to kiss it... lips part... warm heart...open arms.

Today is here and now...

I am here and now... the future is ahead... the past wastes away... I reminisce.

Dreaming of a Day...

...a thought entered my mind yesterday afternoon, about how strong President Obama is. ( I call him "President Obama" because I am speaking it into existence!)
Anyway, I was thinking about all of the pressures that he has on him from many angles!

I have moments when I ask myself if I really want to be a celebrity... it comes with ALOT of baggage and pressure and I am aware of all this so it's not like I'm going in blind!

But just imagine running for president of the US...a Black man...with the name Barack Obama! They attack him every chance they get, and he knows if he is elected that they will at least attempt to assassinate him, if not succeed. To me he is basically risking his life, and dedicating himself to the cause! I admire him tremendously! That is a strong, brave man!

VOTE OBAMA!!! LONG LIVE BARACK!!!

Forget The Past...

People tell me to forget my past and move on...


just move on they say...


"just" move on!


Like it's the easiest thing to do.


That's probably because they haven't walked in my shoes...


seen what I've seen...felt what I've felt...


It's easy to judge when you aren't the one!


So I share through my music, where I don't have to hear other people's opinions.


I really don't want them! I live for me... and I express myself because it may help someone else along their journey! I have had many experiences and lessons learned, what good would it do to keep it to myself?





I'm an artist, my life shapes me and makes me... my expression is from experience.


If I lose that, then what do I have to give???





I tend to be a hermit, because people just don't understand...


when I try to explain it seems as though they get further from


understanding. I know I shouldn't get frustrated because humans


are only human!





"Forget" they say...


but how do you forget the father that beat you


the mother that abandoned you time and again


the foster parents who didn't give a fukk


the man who took your viriginity against your will


the man who beat and raped you when you thought it would never happen again


the kkk that blew up your car, set your house on fire, shot up your bedroom...


the list goes on and on!


NO! I won't forget... I will never let go!


If pain is my soulmate ~ then SO-BE-IT!

Flooded With Thoughts~Drowning In Words

Flooded with thoughts...drowning in words~
I’ve been dreaming of a day
Dreaming of a time when
The leaves will stay green
And the ground will elevate
And bring me closer to the sky
I want to float on the clouds
And forget all of the nothing
That’s behind me
And remember the something
That’s in front of me.

To move past the wasteland
And find a blissful greatland
Take pictures of the wildlife
That listens when we speak
And speaks when we listen

Harmony is a word used by all
And written in the books of life.
Life is all around us
Happening every moment
Everyday
For eternity.

Help me understand the complexity
Of time… and time wasted
And time on fast forward
Will there ever be enough
Time?

Or is it patience that we lack
Slowly moving too fast
At a pace that no one
Can keep up with
Or too slow
To be in unison

A calamity
A metaphor
A memory
The day before
Of you and I
And how we sat
And how you said
You can’t forget
But you don’t remember
You said forever
And now I’m here
And now you’re gone
And so I’m leaving
Before you return
So you won’t see me anymore.

I.M.E.

I.M.E.
~Vibe Hott~
3/4/08

I’m leaving here today
And I’m never coming back
I won’t frequent a destination
That has nothing to offer me
But bitter memories
And deaf ears.

Why are my cries not heard by the masses
Why is destruction the new blue
Is truth not sexy anymore
Ever was it?

I must see a space and time
That has nothing but
Inadequacies
And train tracks leading to
No where.

Nothing is empty
And something is too full
Where is the balance
Is it a true word
Does it mean something
Or am I just manifesting its definition
Creating my own reality?

I tend to do that.

The world I live in
Thrives with imagination
And no one knows
How deep the rabbit hole goes.

I’ve chosen the red pill
It was not thrust upon me
Nor will I force it on another
But my recommendation is to wake up!

Live a life of good will
And transcend this world
Into a place where pain heals itself
And time is timeless
And beauty is beauty every minute
No harsh words or profanities
Love live life
I. M. E.
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*(By the way "I.M.E." is saying "I AM ME")

Forever WE~

A love declared for days to come…
Good as none
I sit and wait
You hesitate
My loss your gain
I seal your fate
One single kiss
My lips
Your lips
We steal this moment
You seem all for it
I start to blush
Adrenaline rush
My heart beats faster
You come closer
I step back
You hit the switch
Lights fade to black
So now we’re here
It’s just us two
I wait for you to make a move
I hear your breathe
I feel your heat
Can’t wait until our souls can meet
Can’t wait until our minds converge
Intertwine…submerge…emerge
Converse…reverse
I press rewind
You hit fast forward
And time fly’s by
My words escape…
Yes, “I love you.”
And all the crazy things you do
The lifetime’s pass
~wrinkle and fade…
but nothing can erase
the memories made
the times we had
the good, the bad
Love me for eternity
Bring me to maternity
Add to me…
Now two are three
And we are love
And we are now
And we are here
So be must be
Forever WE.

Where Is Our Tomorrow~

Where Is Our Tomorrow 

~Vibe Hott~ 

Change won’t come from outside 
Change must come from us 
We live for sake of sinners 
Pain gives us a rush 
Four hundred years enslaved 
Enslaved our minds remain 
They tell us lies through vision 
We call it television 
They criticize my vision 
Just wanna save the children 
We separate the souls of men 
Go to church and praise, amen 
But living lies is seeking sin 
Beware of what you hold within 
Behold the pale horse that walks among the rest 
Behold the pale face that answers you with death 
Keep away from those that try to bring you down 
Patience is the key, peace brings silence to the sound 
The Queens who walked in Egypt shed tears for women now 
They disgrace us as a people, afraid to wear their crown 
Walking tall above them all, I save my tears and sorrow 
I’m searchin for a brighter day, generation of tomorrow 
I say I’m Future’s Daughter cuz together we are one 
I say I am the HOTTEST, enlightened, like the sun! 

Some say that I’m too conscious 
But I say to what degree 
The tree that grows in Brooklyn 
Keeps hope alive in me 
A rose blooming from the cement 
Peace to Pac Shakur 
A life without a purpose 
Tell me what it’s worth 
I squeeze my blood onto the paper 
So you have a part of me 
I send all praises to the Most High 
Thank Jah that we are FREE 
From womb to tomb & birth to earth 
I love my life my gift & curse 
My body is my temple 
Honey brown complected 
Hated and resented 
Still I’m representin 
For all the Queens dropping to they knees 
The money hungry hoes bendin down to touch they toes 
With no respect you get no respect 
So how can you expect to rise above the rest 
I’m paving you a path, you choose whether you will follow 
Don’t wait until the streets are too much for you to swallow 
Where is our tomorrow, where is our tomorrow 

Transition Period.

Life is full of transitions... one BIG transition, if you really think about it. 

Which I often do. And I am now finding my blog to be a space where I can share my continuation of thoughts that plague my mind daily with people who actually want to know...

hmmm... what is VIBE HOTT thinking today... I don't even mind questions in my comments.

My life is an open book with no judgements, because I feel that people may benefit from my experiences (good and bad) and so they are not mine alone to keep for self. Others fear exposing themselves because without that outter protective layer you can easily be hurt. Well, I am no stranger to pain and it has been issued by those closest to me. So, I suppose my coping mechanisms are a bit heightened and so is my ability to bounce back. 

I try to teach others that the way to live your life is not in fear of what others will do to you, but of what you will do to  yourself. That is what the focus should be. (Notice I say should.) You and only you are in control of you, that means your feelings and emotions. It is a difficult concept to really grasp at times, because from infants we grow up believing that things "make" us cry... but there is a grave difference between infancy and adulthood. What should be taught to children is that you control your emotions, and you choose whether to let something affect you, or whether you create a tactical plan by which to go about solving the actual problem; truly what will sulking do? Exactly, just drag you down further!

So, if you lose $50... do you sit around thinking how bummed you are that you lost that $50 or do you use that energy to find another way to make that $50 back?

The answer to that question is the reason why some people are so successful and some are not!

Think on that... while I go get my money!!!

*SMILE* it's the best feeling!!!

Some Call it Poetry...

Come closer…
Closer… closer… closer to me
I want you to see
What it’s like to be free
Won’t you come closer… closer to me…

I’m diggin’ your an-at-o-my
I want to feel our chem-is-try
Please just get closer
A little closer… to me
Look into my eyes
Then you will see
The dream I want to make
A re-a-lity
I want you to come closer
Closer to me…
The truth is in the maker
See me in 3-D
Baby come closer…
Closer to me

I need to feel you closer
So that we can make the most of
An evening filled with roses...
And candles...
And me.
I want to get closer…
Closer to we…
I want to watch you sleep
And just listen to you breathe…
Won’t you sleep closer…
Closer to me

Hold me in the night time
I’m thinking it’s the right time
for you…
To get closer…closer to me.

Calm me from my nightmares
And give me good dreams
That’s how you’ll get closer
And closer to me…

Make me feel secure
And take me from the misery
I love it when you’re closer…
Closer to me…
And when we’re buried in our graves
May they lay us side by side
So together we can spend more
Than a lifetime
And at the end I can say
That my life was sublime
Because I spent it with someone
Who’s love was heavenly
That’s why I want you to come closer…
Closer to me.

~I wrote this poem 3/6/08... my reason... I am addicted to love! It isn't as strong as it once was, but I still feel it burning within. It is often very healthy mentally, emotionally, and spiritually to spend time alone... it's a cleansing period as well as a "getting-to-know-yourself" time, which we all need! Some people are afraid to be alone, and I would say I am one of them, but the truth is that I have spent the majority of my life alone (I'm not just speaking in terms of romantic relationships), just in general --- a lack of family, friends, and trust worthy people.

It's okay because I have come to learn that things are more appreciated when you go without them for long periods of time, and often it is best to see past your emotions into the practical and take it from there!

"Closer" is a poem that speaks volumes of the love I once felt, the love I feel now, and the love that I look forward to in the years to come!

Feel free to leave a comment~

The Beginning~

"Vibe is so HOTT she's allergic to the wintertime... heat melts the snow...sun will shine...you gon' give me mine!"

These are some of the lyrics you can hear on my debut album "ORIGINALITY ~Origin Of A Wordsmith~"

http://cdbaby.com/cd/vibehott

I released this album in January as a message to the masses that although we feel alone at times in this world filled with people, there are others out there to which we can relate. This includes joy, fear, pain, love... Music often helps us to remain in touch with our emotions, but also to know that there is a light at the end of every tunnel!

I make "movement musik" that is Music with a purpose! To get you moving in the right direction and also grooving on the dance floor!

You can also check out my photgraphy, music, and poetry at www.myspace.com/vibehottproductions

Please feel free to leave a comment, they are always welcome.

Until next time...

Peace & Blessings~